Life At The End

Long time since i actually blog.. Its been so bz these months.. PMR ended a week ago.. Our school PMR activities started last week.. It was hell damn boring.. We were treated like dogs.. To be specific,not even dogs deserve these.. We were asked by a fat teacher to sit and stand exactly like she want.. While my leg kinda hurt during trainings for under16 and interschool basketball competition.. Haha.. We manage to go in final after a rough match against 3M2.. My worst opponent.. xD But lost during final to M1.. Not sad at all cuz it was predictable..

Next week will have futsal and bola baling competition.. Which i entered but have no idea how to play at all.. Hahaha! Hope no one bullies me~ Anyway,end of my school stories.. Back to where my life went into a miserable and being stab in the heart.. As u know how my love life goes,i was inlove with someone which wasnt inlove with me.. Well.. I kinda let go and started new relationships.. And i did.. At 1st i thought we were really inlove,but in the end it was only a prank joke.. Or in other words,it was juz for fun.. No warning,no discussion,not even a talk about it.. Till i found out about it,my life beyond hell.. And guess wat,she dont know that i was serious about this.. What can i do? I can juz suck it up and admit my life was meaningless..

Not to be honest,but although i thought we were in a serious relationship,my heart,my mind aint over there.. I am still stuck inlove with her.. I love her!! I am a coward for not saying my feelings out,but i dont want to get reject.. Not trying means no reject.. But i also ended single! Seeing her happy was what i wanted.. But i really hope the one making her happy was me,not others~ Cant help it, love is something everyone want but also hope for no regrets.. True love is hard to find!

There am i,still single! Hahaha! Foolish life~

Going training these few weeks,i know i wont get selected,but insist going.. Eventhough both my leg got hurt,tired everyday,bruise everywher,but to me its ok.. Cuz friends there cheer me up,they make jokes and make fun no matter how the training drain our energy.. And i really hope i can be more close to her.. I can say i like a lot of them,but doesnt mean i am a playgirl.. Its juz my feelings go as it wants.. I do know who i love most.. Juz hoping more chances for me.. But i do think i doesnt deserve any of them.. They are better than me,skillful than me,matured than me! Thats why i never say how i felt to them cuz i know they dont deserve someone like me.. And i have no idea how they felt to me,so its best to juz put it in my heart.. Anything is better than a broken heart..

Here am i -

single

useless

inlove

broken heart